OMG?! :O

I hope this isn't true... I really really hope so. Seriously, this is scaring me. :(
As usual, my friends and I went to the canteen to EAT. :D He hasn't arrived at that time and I was kinda disappointed. You should've seen my face at that time. XD But I carried on waiting, and he DID come!!! I was overjoyed. :P So as usual, my friends went to buy their food, and mine too (so that I could see him for another few more minutes, and so that people'd know the table has been reserved). XP He bought his food at the same stall as my friends. I think I'd really gone crazy at that time. You know what I shouted out? "很可爱哦!" (meaning "SO CUTE!"). I hope he didn't know that I was referring to him. ><" I shouted that like 2-3 times. @_@
And then... Hmm how am I gonna say this? My English isn't good enough. :3 Okay, so the place where I sat at was facing the place where he was sitting at. I have no idea whether he saw me or what, but he suddenly changed places with one of his friends. Did he notice me and was trying to avoid me? /.\ I hope not!!! T^T Cuz to me, the best way to stay close to him is to just watch him from far. ;3 I'm pitiful and I know it. Problems I'm facing: 1. my self-confidence plunges down to zero when it comes to him. 2. I become all shy and nervous. How is he ever gonna know that I exist??!! Sure, he remembers me, but what use is that? ==" I wanna at least be his friend... :/ BOOOHOOOOHOOOO... :'((((