To that someone, I am sorry :/

I am really very sorry but I don't wanna hurt you :( We shouldn't be together until I manage to forget the other one completely, or else I would be like cheating on you :/ If you really love me... You would wait, just like how I never gave up on him :') If you wouldn't... I guess you aren't the one I'm looking for then :| I don't know why but I find it hard to trust boys when they say they love me. I don't believe it when they say "forever". Even if I like that boy, I'll still find it hard to trust him. Maybe I'm a little too insecure. I also don't believe it when boys call me cute or pretty or whatever. Oh well, I should just stay single and have fun with my friends. Gotta learn that I don't have to be in a relationship to be happy ;)

Exam's over! :D

IT'S OVER! OVER AND DONE WITH! YAY! :D 

Yeah, it's over, but I can't tell how much suffering I'll go through next year -.- We are having the PMR and UEC exams next year, and I am so gonna die, given the way I study. I always do last-minute studying, haha :3 Wish me luck! :)

About my results, I'll snap a picture of my report card later on, when I've gotten it :P Some of my scores took a downward plunge though, I guess I've been playing too much. Sad case huh? :/

Since exam's over, I'm in a better mood these days :D But sometimes, I still feel lonely :'/ Cause of that stupid dude -.- He doesn't have any idea how hurt I am when I see him and that girl together. Well, I bet he doesn't even care? :| All he sees, is her. No one else but her </3 Yeah yeah, I know I should get a life. Learn to move on, find someone else. Even I have told myself, countless times. But it's really hard :( 

Okay okay, enough with the sadness -.- I'll be back to post pictures later on :D Stay tuned!

aww :3

‎; 有天，
男孩打錯了電話，
電話的另一頭是個女孩，
女孩的聲音很清脆，
男孩頓時對女孩產生了興趣。

過後的幾個月，
男孩每天都會打電話給女孩，
女孩也和男孩聊的很開心，
彼此視乎產生了愛意。

可每當男孩問起女孩的長相時，
女孩就會笑笑的說：我不知道自己什麽樣喲。
男孩奇怪了，
也沒多問。

一年後，
女孩給了男孩自己住所，
男孩高興的想馬上見到女孩，
準備好之後就到女孩所給的地址，
可卻來到了一家醫院，
那門牌號碼就是之病房吧？
男孩心想。

找著找著，
男孩來到了女孩的病房，
一進去只見到一位美麗的女孩，
男孩還沒說話女孩就先說了，
：抱歉哦，我沒能看見自己的長相。

原來女孩失明了，
男孩後來的每個月都來醫院看女孩，
最後他們還結婚了。。。。。

其實世上有許多的緣分，
緣分來了只要抓緊就好。

Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don’t answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you’re asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She’s screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that “Mommy is crying and sissy won’t wake up.” Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what’s going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying. The next day at school, there’s an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular girls, they think of all the things they’ve said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can’t help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex boyfriend, the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you.. He can’t handle it. He breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends? They’re sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? She’s in shock. She can’t believe it. She knew what you were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad… Bad enough for you to end it. She can’t cry, she can’t feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out. It’s a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone’s crying, your little brother still doesn’t know you killed yourself, he’s too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries and doesn’t stop for days. It’s two years later. The whole school talks to a counselor...-Jessica

We made it! ;)

Yay! Made it through our music exam! :D And yeah, I sang that song :')

Well, I guess I got a little too nervous. I sang the song so fast that my friend who was doing the duet with me found it hard to catch up, haha. And was I too loud, or was she too soft? Cause my voice covered hers up. My right leg kept shaking! Had to lift it up and pretend like I'm "exercising" it to make it less obvious :P My whole body went numb too. Yeah, I was that nervous /_\ I wonder where had all my confidence gone to. Ever since I entered secondary, this is what I've became, scared of everything.

BUT... Overall, it was quite good :P I got complimented! ;) My music teacher asked if I have any extra English classes or something, I said no, and he said that my singing's like a foreigner, like an European or American or something. He also said that my singing's "很有味道", which I don't know how to translate xD The big round of applause and cheering that was heard after the performance made me really happy. The feeling of success and achievement ;) But personally, I still feel that I hadn't done my best at that time because I was too nervous. Sad case ;3

"Were you thinking about him when you sang?" "Woah I like your voice!" "Your singing is full of feelings." Those were my classmates' remarks. Yes, I admit that I thought of him throughout the whole song :') About my voice, it only turned low and husky like this year? When I was younger I used to have a sweet and high-pitched voice. Anyway, I thank God, regardless sweet voice or husky one, as long as I can SING ;)

Singing has been my passion since little. I'm one of those who always sings when bathing hahahaha xD Shush, it's a secret :P

Well, gotta go. Our final exam's just round the corner, and I hope I'll score good grades this time :)